Courage
勇敢
吳星瑩
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「謝謝你曾努力靠近，連我也靠近不了的自己。」
～《內在森林》仙人球植物誌～
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我以為最勇敢的，是毫不畏懼。
卻發現更勇敢的，是懂得害怕。
當我毫不畏懼失去自己，卻選擇臨陣退縮，如果能夠保護你。
我以為最勇敢的，是不斷突破。
卻發現更勇敢的，是回頭拾起。
當我終於想起，我之所以毫不畏懼，不是當時青春逞強，而是曾經一無所有，只有夢想。而我踏遍了所有的路，徹底體會各種恐懼，也學會了如何可以傷害你，也不傷害到自己；卻終於不再奮力尋找出口，只是和害怕同行，回頭面對曾經的缺口，是因為終於明白。
我最害怕的，原來是不曾全力以赴，我所有的時光。
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The bravest is without fear, I thought.
Until I found that with fear is even braver.
As I don't fear anything but wounding you aside, I will back down to keep you from harm.
The bravest is breaking through, I thought.
Until I found taking a break is even braver.
As I take my time looking back, I finally find out my bravery is not from youth, but from owning nothing but hope. As I finally wandered through every paths of my dream, fearing nothing I used to fear about, yet already mastering the skill of harming you without harming myself, I still give in. I give up looking for any exit, knowing exactly where it is though. I choose to step back into different shades of fears, yet back into different traps of your longing for company. I don't fear to lose myself anymore.
For I won't anyway. The most I fear is to disappoint my life, and my courage.
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the Summer Solstice: Freeing
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by Singing Wu
by Singing Wu
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