Missing

遺憾

吳星瑩

「當我好不容易拼湊起所有自己，想開口回應的那刻，才發現等待太久的對方，早已走遠。」

～《內在森林》蒲公英植物誌～

「一切已經完成，我的隨意塗鴉，我的疏忽留白，一切已經繳卷。生命中有許多的到此為止，在還互相擁有的時候，無論下筆如何艱難，
那就是我僅有的，可以作答你的時光。」

～《蒔：心靈時曆‧時映》
收拾：立秋三候｜最後才鳴叫的蟬～

我們最熟悉的，一直是彼此的側臉。

生命太長，一直以為長長的旅程總在身旁，一直以為有永遠的時間可以錯過。

或許我總太期待，讓彼此變得更完美；然而我們的相遇，卻是為了讓彼此懂得遺憾。

遺憾的總在我拼合自己之前，我永遠無法與你拼合。

雖然忍不住會想，如果能現在才和你相遇；卻又如此明白，如果不是當時和你相遇，我不會來到現在的我。

生命從來是一個無法倒轉的迴圈，而每一次迴圈都離開了一步，成為在反覆中持續前進的螺旋。

謝謝你在最後，選擇以背影對我，讓我終於也離開戀戀不捨的交會點。我們終於推動了彼此，分別向前走。

There was always something missing between us.

We were gradually used to the profile of each other. Always aside, there was too much time to keep missing, we thought.

Perhaps I was looking too much forward to you until we left each other behind. Perhaps we met to learn what missing is.

We were meant to miss until we could find the missing piece, which was found at last after we've missed each other forever.

I can't help thinking if only I could recognize you one more step forward, but there could never get to me if I kept staying around you.

Life is always an one-way tour, which we can't reverse, so as to push us forward spirally.

Yet we've ever made every effort to turn around, though only to leave each other a way out toward the better version of you and me apart from us.