Perfect

淬煉

吳星瑩

「他只是不斷經過，不斷走遠，或者是明明如此靠近了，卻不斷錯過。」

～《內在森林》金針花植物誌～

「生命是一次又一次翻鬆的田，花了滿滿的力氣渴望收穫，才發現都還在耕耘自己。」

～《蒔：心靈時曆‧時映》
徘徊：寒露三候｜菊花盛開如陽光遍灑金黃～

生命總在最狂熱的時候，猛然讓我冷卻。

在最想往前衝的時候，從四面八方阻擋我。

讓我在原地踱步中不斷蓄積力量。

穩穩煞止的力量，緊緊收束的力量，一次一次，更加堅固我的核心。

同時不斷刺激我，撬開更多種想像的可能。逼迫我每衝撞一次，就綻放更多層新的可能。

直到我一層一層各就各位，直到我一扇一扇自由開闔。

直到我不再支離破碎，當我終於意識到，自己從來如此精密完整。

直到我完全了解自己，當我終於意識到，原來限制全來自於自己。

當我終於什麼都足以完成，才明白世界非必有什麼等著我去完成。

我存在於世界，已經是種完成。

Life always abruptly cools me down at the edge of burning point.

Abruptly blocking me off in all directions of my charging.

Back and forth being taken the edge off my impulse, I build up strength pacing.

Time after time until I learn the power of braking instead of breaking; the power of restraining through training my core muscles of heart.

At the same time being poked in any inflating and swelling, my possibilities and imagination are fired and bloom.

I am pushed forward through pulling back until I'm all on my marks, yet until I'm lithe in star jumps.

Until I am complete, thus no longer need to be completed.

Until I am determined, thus no longer need to be defined.

As I'm able to make everything perfect, I just realize everything is already perfect.

As I've perfected myself.