Ignited
激動
吳星瑩
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「花了長長的人生，玩著閉眼往後跌落的信任遊戲，
每一次我都在最後關頭，緊緊保護自己，不敢真正去相信。」
～《內在森林》紫藤植物誌～
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我一直很努力，卻一直無法進步。
總是不知道被什麼卡住，平穩地不會墜下，卻也無法往上升。
和別人，和自己，我始終維持著平行關係，不冷不熱，雖然不曾遠離，卻也無法更靠近。
原來我唯一的問題，是不敢有問題。無論有多少選擇，我總是選擇維持現況，也許不會更好，至少不會更壞。
原來我一直假裝在改變，忙著抽換生活可有可無的形容詞；好像就沒空回答，生命始終空懸的問號。
我一再跳過，生命的步步進逼，直到只剩我停留在起點。原來出發從來不是方向，卻是拔開制約的安全索，終於落進遼闊的風景裡，湧出感動。
終於振開翅膀，來擁抱世界。
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I keep moving but somehow make no progress.
Stuck somewhere, I am always stable, without falling but without rising either.
Keeping me in a distance from others and from myself as parallel lines, I am never far away but can't get closer either. No snow yet no heat ever struck the window of my heart.
Perhaps the only problem is no problem. Neither better nor worse, I have no choice because I always choose to have no changes.
I keep busying myself with changing up ornaments of my life so as to avoid seeing the void of my life.
Life keeps agitating me as I keep sidestepping. There's no one left but me in the jumping-off place. I keep pacing until I can't pass on it anymore. Ignited, I untie the harness and finally fall.
And I finally fly, with all my arms to touch the scenery infinite.
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Slight Heat: Exciting
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by Singing Wu
by Singing Wu
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