Recognize
承認
吳星瑩
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「沒有人看見我的悲傷。因為真正的悲傷，是如此孤獨的事。
即使剛好有人走過，也只能走過。」
～《內在森林》油桐植物誌～
「我們四處躲避，卻終究發現，我們並沒有因此被找到。
我們開始到處尋找，有沒有人，正在尋找著我們？」～《蒔：心靈時曆‧時映》
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我不知道為何，無論你如何陪伴，我還是感覺孤單。
你總是沒有找到，還有好多好多我。
我也不知道為何，其實很想被找到的我，卻一直躲起來。
於是我一直遇見，根本沒發現我躲起來的你，覺得無聊而懶得來找我的你，找不到還把原本的我弄丟的你。我們玩著鬼抓人，在愛裡不停鬼打牆。
換我一直在愛裡尋找，對的你。
卻原來，是我一直假裝找不到，那些被我拋棄，最不敢讓你看到的我；那些怕被拋棄，乾脆先拋棄你的我。
除非我終於坦然掛失，終於陪伴自己，欣然認領，那個被我長久躲著，最孤單的我。
我才能終於，被愛找到。
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I just don't find out why: the more for company, the more I feel lonely.
There's always too many shadows sneaking away from me you never find out.
I also don't find out why: the more I hope to be seen, the more I keep hiding from the sight of you.
Thus I've stepped on the shadow of you sitting loose to my absence; on the shadow of you scoffing at my going in circles and leave me hitting the wall; on the shadow of you keeping messing me up and missing me out. We build the mind maze together and apart. Hide and seek.
Yet I am it. I go out of my way to look for you.
I keep pretending to look for someone but me. Thus I don't need to tag me; to touch the underside of me I keep covering; to tie the autotomy of me after I cut ties with you.
The only way out is to claim lost, and claim found. Thus I can finally piece me up, finding myself no longer lonely.
Thus I can be recognized by love.
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Pure Brightness: Wandering
KEYWORD
by Singing Wu
by Singing Wu
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