Desire

渴望

吳星瑩

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半行詩,半個音符,半團泥土,半抹顏色,半圈旋舞。
專注在單純的快樂。

~《內在森林》月下美人植物誌~

可不可以,誠實面對,自己對愛渴望。不要害怕,那個如此震動的自己?
可不可以,勇敢去擁有。即使知道,可能再度失去?

因為我勇敢地盡力了。」


~《蒔:心靈時曆‧時映》

醞釀:大寒二候|猛禽迅疾捕食抵禦嚴寒

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在深深的虛空之中,是什麼喚醒了我?

什麼是夢呢?讓我歡喜,讓我悲傷。我喜歡的,我厭惡的,如果這些感覺都是夢,那麼是什麼讓我做夢呢?

真正沉睡的人,不會做夢。真正醒來的人,也不會做夢。

在這個終將失去的世界中,空虛是我為愛付出的代價。如果我渴望永遠,我只能永遠渴望。

可是,我縱然失去我愛的,仍無法失去我的愛。

直到我終於明白,你並非用來填補我的渴望。卻是在所有即將消逝的缺憾之中,如果我曾經渴望,將我擴及成更廣大的存在,因而可以體會你。

因而我終於體會,在自己之內我如此渺小,卻又存在如此廣大的可能,叫做我們。

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What awakes me in the deepest emptiness?

What is Dream? What makes me happy, yet makes me unhappy; what I like, and what I dislike, if all these experiences are just as dreams, after all, what makes me dream?

The one fast asleep never dreams, as well as the one wide awake.

And you are my dream; desire is that I dream about you. Yet in this broken world, missing is the price I pay for love. If I desire lasting, I can only last desiring.

But even losing the love outside, I can never lose the love inside.

Only if I realize you are here not to fill me, but to fulfill me, I can expand myself boundlessly to feel you, even bound to lose you.

Thus I realize I am small when I am Me, but immense when I desire to be We.

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5 days after Great Cold: Incubating

KEYWORD
by Singing Wu

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