Gestation
孕育
吳星瑩
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「每個人的心裡，都藏著一座看不見的深深森林。就這樣長大了，某些自己卻永遠沒有長大，迷路在心中的森林。」～《內在森林》種子方舟植物誌～
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如果我不選擇當個母親，那是因為我從沒從我的子宮，讓自己好好誕生。
那是因為我還沒切斷世界的期待，然後接回和自己相連的臍帶。
如果我不選擇當個母親，那是因為我還一直在當我母親的母親。如果所有的母親，都還一直像個渴望的孩子，因為從沒好好當個孩子。
如果我選擇，當個母親，並不是犧牲自己的一切，供給孩子長大，好像就可以逃避，原來自己也還需要長大。當我選擇，當個母親，以世界至今累積的智慧，推送孩子向世界外更遠之處；並往後持續累積智慧，孕育自己往自己更深之處。
我選擇，當自己的母親，讓自己，持續誕生。
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If I haven't been born from my own womb, I will never choose to be a mother.
For I haven't cut off expectations of the world, and reconnected the heart funicle to myself.
If I'm still acting as the mother of my mother, I can never choose to own my own child. All mothers are still desiring mother love, while never acting as children in their childhood.
If I choose to be a mother, I will never live for my child so as to escape my life, pretending only children need to grow up but not mother. As I choose to be a mother, I will keep boosting my children farther and farther with accumulated worldly wisdom so far, at the same time collecting wisdom toward my inner self nearer and nearer.
I choose to be the mother of my own to make myself always new born.
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Great Cold: Incubating
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by Singing Wu
by Singing Wu
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